Claira’s blog

So yea... Happy New Year.

I thought about posting a post about how much I hate Tom Cruise... But that would be mean.

I also thought about bashing Led Zeppelin for a while, because I hate them, too... That would also be mean.  But funny.

Yeah...

So I got this Victoria's Secret bra two days ago... Dear God it's amazing.  It's purple, and push-uppy.  Haha... Believe me, I have enough there not to need a push-up, but it was purple... and on clearance.  I needed it.  Haha.

I fell asleep after I got home from taking Nikki to school this morning... Kept having weird dreams and shit... Crazy.  Haha.

This year rocked.  Seriously.

January/February was cold as hell, and we got a lot of snow.  Teachers went on strike, giving us a two week break.

March/April was great, we went to Washington D.C. for our art trip, my friends and I had one hell of a heart-to-heart on the way back home.

May was awesome.  We had our prom, which was so, so much fun, (my friends and I rented a stretch hummer) I lost weight, (haha) and became a lot closer with friends yet again.  Also went to Cook's Forest as one of our senior trips.  Nearly flipped a canoe with Mary.

June was bitter sweet.  I graduated from high school, cried with a lot of my friends, and got laughed at by my prom date... (that little bastard.  haha.)  We had a party afterward, and I got the crap beat out of me in the bouncy boxing ring by tyler... He's ruthless.  Had a few graduation parties, including my own.  My boyfriend got me a card and wrote me a letter in it, it made me cry.

I'll be honest, July was totally and completely graduation parties.

As was August.  Haha, but I started college at the end of the month, and it's great.

September, I turned 19, lol.  That's about it.

October went smoothly, I didn't even get stressed out mid-semester!

November, come one, was great.  Turkey?  Mmmm... Also, my friends all came home for Thanksgiving break, and it was so fun!!!

December was great, too.  My boyfriend got me a ring for Christmas, I made the Dean's List, and I get a month off of school!  Today is sort of sad, because it's the end of this year...

I always get that way every year... Haha...

Today was rather boring... Got out of bed around 12ish, went to work around 5, came home at 10.  Nothing too great about that.

Maybe spending some time with Jon tomorrow.

So I was just sitting here, mending my sinus infection, and thinking... Holy hell, I haven't posted in like, two weeks.  Damn.  So yeah, got on here... Don't know what to type.

Christmas is coming, that's a good thing.  I don't know what to paint for Amber and Lyn.  My paints are at my moms... GREAT place for them, lol. I think I will work on the paintings on Friday and Saturday... I'm giving them to my friends on Sunday.  Good.  They will be fresh.

Today is our (Jon and mine) three-year-anniversary.  Has been for 13 minutes.  Lol.

We don't really buy eachother things for our anniversary as of now, because we feel that considering we aren't married yet, we don't need to spend money (that we really don't always have) on eachother.  It's unnecessary at the moment, when Christmas is just around the corner and I'm getting a ring!!! ;-D  Not THAT kind of a ring, just sort of a promise type of ring. 

I remember the day I met the love of my life... It was 9th grade (I'm a freshman in college now) at lunch.  My then friend, my friend Ray, and myself were sitting at our lunch table, eating and talking, when this tall, gangly thing of a boy walked up to us and sat down next to Ray.  His hair was bleached nearly white, and he wore a blue shirt and tight-fitting jeans.  The blonde hair made me laugh my ass off, but he had the prettiest blue eyes I had ever seen.

I ended up thinking he was mean by the end of that lunch period.  LMAO.

A few weeks later, after getting to know him, I realized that he was actually really nice and funny.  I asked him why he wore tight pants.  Haha. 

A little while after that, he and I were leaving lunch, and he had bitten my finger during that period.  (Don't ask, he's a goofy one)  When we were walking down the hall, he grabbed my head and my neck and bit me vampire-style.  Haha, that's what made me fall head over heels for him, oddly enough.

After that, we became really good friends.  Over that summer, I had acquired a boyfriend (BIG MISTAKE) and he found out when we talked on a yahoo! messenger conversation.  I remember telling him I was dating someone, and feeling horrible about it.  I remember him saying something like, "Oh... I didn't know that." and not saying much else. 

That boy I was dating had cheated on me nearly every day of the two months we had been together, and then he broke up with me for going to a movie with my best friend, Spencer.

When the next school year started, Jon and I got even closer as friends.  The crush I had been supressing for a whole summer came back full force, and I didn't know what to do with it.  I was very good at caving to peer pressure, and because of that (my friends didn't find him attractive), I never told him.  Not long after that, a girl I was friends with asked him out.  He said yes, and they dated for a few weeks.  I remember when she told me in French class, and I put my head down and cried for the remainder of the period.  It was past the point of crush, now.  I was falling nearly in love with this kid and my friend went a took him from me.  (I also at that time had no idea that he had liked me since that yahoo! conversation and had failed to ask me out later because he wasn't sure if I was dating anyone.  I still feel like hell to this day for breaking his heart like that.)

I fought back.  I flirted as much as I could (wasn't very good at it NOR was i very experienced in the area) and he seemed to notice.  I was hell-bent on stealing him from her.  Not long after that, he broke up with her for pretty much finding out she was a ho... (Not lying).

Two days later, my friend asked him out for me, because I'm a chicken shit.

He said yes before she could finish asking him the question.  I hugged him and squealed how happy I was.  It's been the same ever since.  :-)

Sometimes I really underestimate myself.  Even I have no idea how much I love him, it's been continuously growing over the past three years.  I can't believe I made it this far, lol... I seriously thought I had a #2 curse... (one relationship lasted two days, two others lasted 2 months)  I'm so thankful for how much of my pms and shit he has put up with, and so glad that he and I want eachother for the rest of our lives.  I work with this one woman who seems to think that I will find another guy in college, and that my high school boyfriend will never be my husband.  She has no idea.  I can't look at another guy the way I look at Jonathon... I could never love anyone else the way I love him.  He's the best thing that has ever happened in my life, and I'm proud of that.  Holy shit, I think I'm gonna cry!!!

Haha, I'll post wedding pictures in about 5-6 years, I promise.

I may start counting down the hours.  Mmmm... Raisin Bran.  Love that cereal.  HA.  Well, the diet?  Yeah, sort of kind of happening.  Toning a little, but not losing any weight.  Though I really don't care about my number weight.  I just want to be healthy and look moderately good.  Yeah, something like that.

So uhm, saw Jon yesterday.  WHOOP!  COOKIES ARE DONE!!!  Brb...

Ok!!!  Yes, I love to bake. Anyway, Jon and I had some... ehem... fun, and then we cuddled.  We love to cuddle.

My first semester of college is only two weeks away from being done, and I LOVE IT!  I can't wait to start my new classes in January!  Lots of Biology and English, which is what I was aiming for.  I wanted to take painting, but I couldn't fit it in with what I actually needed.  I may run to my mom's house tonight to get my laptop... No, I will just sit at home, shave my legs, and read.  I love reading.

I'm currently reading Eclipse for the second time.  LOVING IT!  I read the entire series more slowly to understand the little parts that are easily looked over.  I really love the books even more, now.  Makes me happeh.

Anyway, see you all later!

Yeah... Going to try to attempt to lose 10 pounds.  Don't know how the hell I am going to do it, but I am going to try.  10 pounds by Christmas... Sounds good to me... I have nearly a month to do it... I only want to lose in my thighs and tummy though...  If my butt gets smaller, there will be hell to pay.  i like my ass.  OH YEAH!

Went in to work with my friend tonight to wait for another friend to get off... They were busy, so I clocked in and helped... Made 24 dollars in an hour.  Then left.  Haha.  Anyway, Thanksgiving went well... Ate turkahs, saw my beautiful boyfriend, and got some much-needed sleep when that shit in the turkah kicked in.

Uhm, yeah... Added some new things to that thing... Lol  like books and stuff.

I added a lot of books, actually.

Mmmm, raspberry sorbet.  So creamy.  So pink... Mmm.  Lol...

I am really hitting one hell of a writer's block on here... Maybe I will start writing a story on here or something.  Don't really know yet.

Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and the turkahs are on the run.  Lol.  Cleaned the entire house today... Well, almost the entire house... Dad can clean his own damn bathroom...

I'm watching Oprah with my sister.  Hannah Montana is on there... Miley Cyrus, whatever.. Lol I'm going to be honest, I like her.  She's a good role model for kids.  And she's cute.  Lol.  (Thanks to Nikki, I watch Hannah Montana every damn day.) 

Mmmm... I like candles.  'Specially ones that smell like cookies.

Yes... I am a nail biter.

Anyway, it's been one hell of a week.  I haven't spent any real, good time with Jon, and it's going to kill me.  Not that we don't want to see eachother... We're just so busy with getting our things together for our majors... Hard stuffs, me tells ya.  I'm scheduling classes, getting clearances, things like that.  He's taking entrance tests, gaining hours, not sleeping or eating, you know... Things like that.  It's beginning to bother me, he looks so tired.  I saw him at his place of work Friday (my friend and I ate there, he came out and sat with us).  He was so tired, he could have fallen asleep on my shoulder.  He was irritable because of his lack of sleep, and it made me feel horrible.  I just wish I could hold him and let him sleep where I knew he was getting enough rest.

I wish I could stop the rest of the world just so that he could a.) get some good, honest sleep, b.) eat something c.) spend some time with his family d.) spend time with me.  I usually put his health and well-being before my own... He doesn't like it, but too bad.  Don't care.  He's my everything...

(Aside from the cat and the sister)

My sister (nikki) was sick this week.  Poor little girl... I made sure to take care of her the best I could... She's my peach, and I love her to death.

The cat, on the other hand... Baybea has this uncontrollable need to sleep on my face... Hard to breath with large quanities of CAT over your nasal passage.  She's giving me the eye, now... Bet she read that.

I really need to get to bed... It's 2 in the morning!